I cry over everything. Or as my best friend put it so eloquently, “I feel all the feels.” If you live in Pittsburgh you may know that the sun hasn’t come out in like eleventy months. The whole city of Pittsburgh (including me) has looked like this forever:
We have a city-wide depression going on. Everyone I know is miserable. When it started snowing again Monday night, I burst into tears. All I want to do is sleep and eat potatoes. I am longing for Spring and bike rides and reading outside and swimming and sunshine and fresh vegetables…
But since that’s a million years away and I enjoy going from one extreme to another, let’s talk about things that have made me cry lately (besides everything).
You don’t get to choose if you get hurt in this world, but you do have some say in who hurts you. I like my choices.
Angsty, funny teenagers. Cancer. Dream trip to Amsterdam to find the author of a favorite book. First love. Friendship. Death. Grieving. Coming out in movie form (filmed in Pittsburgh!) on June 6. See the trailer here. See a ton of librarians watch it en masse and cry together. See me cry if someone says “okay” in a certain tone of voice.
2. This movie: Blue is the Warmest Color
But I have infinite tenderness for you. I always will. All my life long.
Blue is the Warmest Color was awarded the Palme d’Or at the 2013 Cannes Film Festival. In an unprecedented move, the award was granted to not only the director (Adbellatif Kechiche), but also the to the lead actresses, Adele Exarchopoulos and Lea Seydoux. Based off of the graphic novel by Julie Maroh, and showing at the Hollywood Theater, Blue follows the life and love of two young lesbians. It beautifully captures that obsession you feel when you first fall in love, when you can’t stop thinking about it and your world revolves around them. And then. There is also a break-up scene that is harrowing in its realism and flat-out pain and fury. Did I mention I saw this on Valentine’s Day?
3. This song: Say Something by A Great Big World
Say something, I’m giving up on you. I’m sorry that I couldn’t get to you.
I know, I know. Don’t judge. I’m not the only one. Oh the tears! Other songs making me cry recently include: Song for Zula by Phosphorescent, All I Need by Radiohead and Love Out of Lust by Lykke Li. I dare you to listen to any of these and not want to get under the covers until April.
4. This photo of Otis smiling:
5. This text from my best friend:
I love u and ur awesome!!
Because we all need to know we are loved and awesome.
Here’s to spring flowers and blah, blah, blah-
suzy, the saddest librarian