Me and Sarah McLachlan. Bringing you down like a champ.
I cry over everything. Or as my best friend put it so eloquently, “I feel all the feels.” If you live in Pittsburgh you may know that the sun hasn’t come out in like eleventy months. The whole city of Pittsburgh (including me) has looked like this forever:
We have a city-wide depression going on. Everyone I know is miserable. When it started snowing again Monday night, I burst into tears. All I want to do is sleep and eat potatoes. I am longing for Spring and bike rides and reading outside and swimming and sunshine and fresh vegetables…
Hah! None for you.
But since that’s a million years away and I enjoy going from one extreme to another, let’s talk about things that have made me cry lately (besides everything).
1. This insanely quotable book: The Fault in Our Stars, John Green
You don’t get to choose if you get hurt in this world, but you do have some say in who hurts you. I like my choices.
Angsty, funny teenagers. Cancer. Dream trip to Amsterdam to find the author of a favorite book. First love. Friendship. Death. Grieving. Coming out in movie form (filmed in Pittsburgh!) on June 6. See the trailer here. See a ton of librarians watch it en masse and cry together. See me cry if someone says “okay” in a certain tone of voice.
2. This movie: Blue is the Warmest Color
But I have infinite tenderness for you. I always will. All my life long.
Blue is the Warmest Color was awarded the Palme d’Or at the 2013 Cannes Film Festival. In an unprecedented move, the award was granted to not only the director (Adbellatif Kechiche), but also the to the lead actresses, Adele Exarchopoulos and Lea Seydoux. Based off of the graphic novel by Julie Maroh, and showing at the Hollywood Theater, Blue follows the life and love of two young lesbians. It beautifully captures that obsession you feel when you first fall in love, when you can’t stop thinking about it and your world revolves around them. And then. There is also a break-up scene that is harrowing in its realism and flat-out pain and fury. Did I mention I saw this on Valentine’s Day?
3. This song: Say Something by A Great Big World
Say something, I’m giving up on you. I’m sorry that I couldn’t get to you.
I know, I know. Don’t judge. I’m not the only one. Oh the tears! Other songs making me cry recently include: Song for Zula by Phosphorescent, All I Need by Radiohead and Love Out of Lust by Lykke Li. I dare you to listen to any of these and not want to get under the covers until April.
4. This photo of Otis smiling:
I don’t know why this makes me teary-eyed. I’m fragile. He’s cute.
5. This text from my best friend:
I love u and ur awesome!!
Because we all need to know we are loved and awesome.
Here’s to spring flowers and blah, blah, blah-
suzy, the saddest librarian
Eleventh Stack 
Ugh, I live in Cleveland, Ohio, and it’s been the same gray skies here, too. It’s awful!
This was a hilarious read and I agree one more snow day and I think everyone will cry. Thanks for the picks. Looks interesting. Oh and Sarah Mclachlan rocks : )
It’s okay to cry… this will make you cry… it’s 80 degrees here today… : ) Sending you smiles and NO MORE SNOW!!!
45 today! My husband went out without a coat! Even I, the biggest cold wimp in the world, have been going out without a scarf or gloves when it’s been in the 30s. All the negative temps make normal cold warm. But yes, the snow is just ridiculous. BUT, we’ve reached that point where it’s starting to break up.. cold then warmish, then cold then warmish… which means the end is near! Can you stand it for another month?
Sending cupcakes!! Winter will be over at some point in the future, I promise! (You probably don’t want to hear how I love winter, so I’m not going to mention that.) (But I totes understand how people could be SICK of it, ENOUGH ALREADY.)
Fantastic. Fantastic stuff here. Thank you.
I must borrow that line ” you feel all the feels” sums me up, I too am so ready for sunshine and warmth but the gift of the flowers growing might bring a tear to the eye ~ or it might just be the sunscreen
I have a hard time expressing my emotions, so whenever I feel like I want to cry and can’t, I just watch the TFIOS trailer again. Thanks for giving me permission to be a basket case. ;)
LAF
Are you on an antidepressant that is preventing you from crying? Test it out and then feel ALL of YOUR feels. Doesn’t mean you have to be downcast all the time, but you may want to KNOW how YOU feel before the wrong anti-depressant makes you feel so “perfect” that you won’t be able to cry even if your REAL life warrants it. There are others that won’t hide true feelings from yourself, even as they work to help you cope and get through them.
Thanks for your concern, Charlotte. I was making a joke (hence the “winking” emoticon), but your advice, for those to whom it applies, is sound.
LAF
And I thought it was just me! I can’t read certain things at my computer at work (especially out at the reference desk) because, well, I blubber. :'(
It is the same here in Peterborough, Ontario – we are so over the snow! I cry at lots of things too – even Finding Nemo, much to my children’s horror!
You do look pretty cool! (terrible pun I know) You can send some snow this way?
Wow! I think I hit a nerve. The responses to this post have been alternately inspiring and hilarious. Thanks! Also, here is the newest addition to my wardrobe:
http://compressmerch.com/products/pittsburgh-pantone-428c
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